So anyways, one of the hardest parts of the editing process- especially as a self published author- is the decisions that need to be made. While a publisher might “suggest” that you make certain changes to your manuscript, when you’re self publishing, those decisions are yours to make. With that brings incredible freedom…but also makes you responsible for the tough decisions.

The toughest of all, for me, was when my editor suggested I lose the daggy pop songs I’d used as chapter headings. I faffed around with that decision for weeks.

The songs in question had been my playlist through the process- the soundtrack, if you will. Deleting them was the toughest thing I’ve had to do…but I think Nicola was right.

Part of my attachment, I think, was simply because the songs had helped me write- and rewrite- this book. I spent many an hour sitting in traffic during my commute listening to these songs and dealing with plot and character problems as the music blared from the speakers. Through the re-write and edit process, the music helped me get into Emily’s head.

And yes, when I’m stopped in traffic, I have been known to use the steering wheel as an electronic drum kit, do a shoulder shimmy, and even do the Tragedy hands.

So, without further ado, here’s the double album …in loose chapter order:

1. Never- Moving Pictures
2. Just Haven’t Met You Yet- Michael Buble
3. Torn- Natalie Imbruglia
4. Strong Enough- Cher
5. Can’t Stop Myself From Loving You- William Shakespeare
6. All By Myself- Celine Dion
7. Goody Two Shoes- Adam and the Ants
8. Love at First Sight- Kylie Minogue
9. In Your Eyes- Kylie Minogue
10. Too Lost in You- Sugababes
11. It’s Raining Men- Geri Halliwell
12. Let Me Entertain You- Robbie Williams
13. What You’ve Done To Me- Samantha Jade
14. #1 Crush- Garbage
15. Obsession (I Love You)- Amiel
16. On A Mission- Gabrielle Cilmi
17. Holding Out For A Hero- Bonnie Tyler
18. One Crowded Hour- Augie March
19. Jealousy- Pet Shop Boys (with Robbie Williams)
20. One Way Or Another- One Direction
21. Tragedy- Steps
22. Last Thing On My Mind- Steps
23. Never Ever- All Saints
24. Last Night- Good Charlotte
25. Baby, It’s You- The Promises
26. Unfaithful- Rihanna
27. Don’t Call Me Baby- Kreesha Turner
28. I Think I Love You- Voice of the Beehive
29. Hold me Now- Johnny Logan
30. I’ve Been Waiting For You- Abba
31. How Am I Supposed To Live Without You- Michael Bolton
32. Feeling Good- Michael Buble
33. So Happy Together- The Turtles