So I haven’t written one single productive income producing word in weeks.
I haven’t even written one single future income producing word in weeks.
I’ve thought about it- a lot.
I have a list of potential article ideas. Ok, it’s not really a list- I don’t do lists. Instead it’s a heap of post it notes randomly stuck on my office wall.
There’s so many ideas on the list/wall that I think I’m going to have to either throw a dart and see what gets hit, or work down the list one by one until the floor is covered with screwed up balls that used to be post it notes with ideas on them.
So I have article ideas.
I have the first and last chapter written on my next fiction project- and ideas for another three…which is great if I could get even something published. Everyone says to just keep writing. Keep the faith. You’re getting so close.
I know that. I am getting close. I’m getting rejections that are encouraging rather than silence. I’m getting rejections from publishers telling me they’ve read the whole thing even though they knew it wouldn’t fit their list. Great….I guess. The logical theory says that I have to get it in front of someone whose list it would fit- but that seems further away than ever.
So I haven’t written any fiction words either.
I have the first draft written of a non fiction astro book that I firmly believe has commercial potential- and definitely won’t send me down the road of heartbreak that fiction does.
I haven’t written a word on that either.
Not one income producing or potentially income producing word in weeks.
Since before holidays.
I don’t know whether it’s because I’m out of routine.
I don’t know whether it’s because I don’t have something on the horizon that I’m working towards- I just have these vague goals that obviously need to be tightened up.
I don’t know which came first- the candy crush addiction or the unproductivity. I’m thinking that my candy crush addiction came from a need to find a viable procrastination tool, rather than the other way around.
Speaking of which- just how do I get past level 23 without buying boosters, lives or whatever?
Anyways, I’ve tried my usual tricks.
I’ve tried reading good writing (I can absolutely recommend Into My Arms by Kylie Ladd).
I’ve tried watching good writing (I’m back on The West Wing– it’s the best writing I can think of to watch).
I’ve tried exercising at the crack of sparrows fart- that 6am pump class is a killer.
So why isn’t anything working?
I think I’ve already said that- I’ve temporarily lost the faith.
Rather than admitting that, admitting that I’m scared, admitting that I’m not beating the world at the moment, I’ve fallen into something a lot more comfortable and lazy than that.
I’ve fallen into nothing.
My husband told me this morning that if I don’t write something productive soon, then I’ll be writing a resume.
So, with that in mind, I’m stepping away from candy crush, stepping away from the TV, putting a face and something other than my jammies and ugg boots on, and going back to work- my work.
For the writers out there- how do you dig yourself out of the fug and keep the faith?
What are your tricks for breaking through writers block?